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i cant believe im saying this but im once again addicted to studying. its like now i dont want to work because i just want to watch lectures, take quizzes and do the projects that arent due until next year
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me: nice day out, shouldn’t waste it
*disassociates on the couch until sunset*
me: fuck
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memesreves-deactivated20220122:
it’s always been from the heart
Always will be
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“There is just one person inside my head. One person I can’t stop thinking about. It’s you.” - “Testone”, 2016 by Andrea Salvatori
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DON’T USE YOUR ENERGY TO WORRY. USE YOUR ENERGY TO BELIEVE, CREATE, TRUST, GROW AND HEAL.
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faithfully
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unhinged-kitten-deactivated2023:
i’m “house phone” years old
i’m “computer room” years old
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the thing that gets you sometimes is the frustration. for every time someone else sees you being late, losing something, forgetting something important: there are hours in your day dedicated to it.
you have strange, fae-like rituals. the keys have to go in their special bowl, because if you forget even once, they will be gone forever. you stack items on a stool in front of your door so that you can’t leave without touching them. you can’t take your wallet out of your bag, ever, it will simply fade away.
everything has to be written down. everything, everything. whatever you need to do, you need to do it now. you check and re-check the busmap only to still get lost on the same route you’ve always taken home. you start getting ready to go 3 hours early and still end up 15 minutes late, unsure even of where the time has gone. don’t sit down, there’s something strange about your bed or the couch or the floor - once you sit down, you’ll get stuck.
you are very used to operating without instructions. people say you’re good at winging it but really you’ve never really known where the rules are coming from. you have to live in constant strange anticipation - when your brain does fail you, how can you predict every horrible outcome. maybe today you will have a minor curse, and forget to brush your teeth. or maybe today you will wake up - and no matter what you do, your whole body begs to return you back to sleep. maybe today you will break a glass and then just stand there, surrounded by the shards, frozen in place - because you need to go to the bathroom, but you also need to sweep.
and everyone else seems to have gotten the memo, and it’s easy for them, and it never, ever gets easy for you. make plans and keep them. they roll their eyes when you say sorry it’s too messy we can’t go over to my apartment. they ask why did you leave something so big until the last minute. on instagram, your friend makes a reel where she says if they cared, they would change. they literally do not care. someone says it’s a symptom, and in the comments, all they get is then go to therapy! it can’t control everything you do!
so you go to therapy. and you work out to calm down and you do your self-care and you try to be grateful for the small things. and you structure literally your entire life around it, around the ways you can’t live right. you have failsafe over failsafe over red flag. you have shelves of organizational manuals. you have alarms for things like did you remember to eat that you still manage to figure out how to snooze. you have time-blocked sites and deleted apps you get lost in and you are constantly trying. because you also want a life where you are not stepping over laundry. juggling knives, you spend your whole life feeling like you’re ice skating.
and still. she sighs at you. i mean, it’s just. i don’t understand how you constantly miss all the small stuff. i mean, this is the easy part. you’re just not trying hard enough.
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POV: ur an ancient monster possessing the body of a 20 (ish) year old & a stoner and his talking dog r totally messing w the vibe
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with love comes loss.
